I have done this myself....  If I had only known sooner....If the school had been honest....Maybe I didn't search hard enough?  Why didn't I know?....  All these things have flashed in my mind at one time or another.  I beat myself up over Samantha having to struggle. I beat myself up over Samantha having dyslexia...It's all my fault I know I must be dyslexic...  It comes  directly from a parent.  I know it must be me... ..I finally gave that up when I got mad enough to realize who cares where it comes from?  Who cares if the Child Study Team lied?  Who cares about an IEP that doesn't even come close to describing my daughter..  If I wallow in anger about something I can't change it serves no purpose however if I use that anger towards things I can change then maybe it will help another parent/child not have to go through what I did. Whether you had an extra cup of coffee when you were pregnant or you struggled in school undiagnosed as dyslexia doesn't really matter.  None of this made your child dyslexic.  Your child is who she/he is meant to be...And you and I are all here to help...  So put the blame away and lets be thankful we all found each other and know we are not alone in this struggle..Together we can bring change.....